Yesterday... I was in very bad mood... I didn't talk to anyone in my work place... Those idiots were so curious and so they started to disturb me... That horny bitch, Sylvia asked me was it my first monthly period... I was so mad... and I feel like activate a nuclear missile and suicide with those idiots... Later... I got flu and light fever... damn it... I'm still in very bad mood... I don't even feel like talking to anyone... I just hope I could lean on Mich's shoulder... sighhh...you there, Mich?
I'm too tired to think and type my blog... I'm totally exhausted and I don't feel comfortable... something is haunting me badly... Last Wednesday... I watched Constatine with Mich... The movie was great... and I love it... (unfinished post) Last Saturday... I got American Idiots from Mich... and I did something stupid... (unfinished post) Today Mich came to my house... she met my Mum... Dad wasn't here... my sister went to school... Mich and my Mum had a nice chat... I felt great to see that.... I was thinking if I meet her parents... will that happens too? Something terrible happened to me... I didn't know what was going on... and I feel so stupid... I was wondering how come I couldn't do it... Is it HIM playing something with me.... or I'm gonna have some serious problems... I feel so sorry...to myself... to somebody... It is a hellish day for me... Something is haunting my mind badly... I feel like I'm gonna crazy...
Mich is not going to study in LimKokWing anymore... she didn't show up on the first day - 14th Feb... She changed her mind not to study in LimKokWing... I feel good and bad for her... Well, she doesn't need to watse so much time and get so tired... just to go to the far far away college... ermmm...but I know she wants to study there... I wish I could do something... Valentine's day... I was working (oh fuck...) I was so upset (sighh...) something happened (God help me!) I was so down (Damn it...) I was eating alone (not again...) and then I received a message from Sis... asking me how's my Valentine's day... I didnt tell her anything... and she told me she gonna date a monkey out (gorrila? orang utan?)... I feel better... she told me to become a good boy too... sighhh...she still treat me like a little brother... But the sky turned bright after I finished my work... Hohoho... I was so glad to see my dear Mich... I feel much better... and we...ahem...I was a naughty boy... sorry, Sis... I had an unforgettable Valentine's Day... New blog template 50% completed... really not much time for it... guess I gotta buy American Idiots by Green Day to get the damn cool song...sighhh... my wallet dying...softly... I got an admission offer from MMU - Multimedia University... I don't feel like going there... but I have to... I'm sorry...for everything.... Going to watch Constatine with Mich on Wednesday... hahaha... finally I'm free from working life... well.... just 24 hours... hahaha... damn it...I still have to go to KLCC... oh man... I'm having KLCC-phobia.... I don't have much time for blogging... sighhhh....
Working life... sucks... everyday... I drive to LRT station and then take LRT to KLCC... and then... the odour of Mexican Bun from Rotiboy... and then walk to 1st floor...and then... my "lovely" working place... Life is always the same now... Only two words describe my daily activity - work and sleep... errmmm...sorry...include that with "eat"also...
Life is busy... no time for blogging anymore... my work is quite good... People from there are good... They like me and I like them too... I'm happy working with those playful monkeys...
Chinese New Year... hahahaha... good to see my grandma, grandpa, aunties and uncles... and cousins... Well, I didn't know I have so many cousins... hahaha... Maybe next year... more cousins will appear? Nonono...more angpau to give away... Should be more uncles and aunties... Hahaha...
Constatine... a horror movie that I must watch... angels, fallen angels (Lucifer?) and demons... Heaven and Hell... and that cool subtitle... "A war conceived in Hell, started in Heaven, ends in Earth..." Must watch...must watch....
I heard that Final Fantasy - Advent Children is coming out on 14 March.... I GOTTA WATCH THE FIRST SHOW! I SWEAR! DAMN IT FOR SO LONG I BEEN WAITED!!!! DAMN SQUARE-ENIX FOR TESTING MY PATIENCE!!!
Now I'm up to my new blog template due to my dear lovely Mich... She doesn't like the current "darky" template...so I gotta kick away Velvet Nightmare...and replace it with Boulevard of Broken Dreams... Can somebody please look for the song "Boulevard of Broken Dreams" by "Greenday" for me? Send to my email please? Thank you very muchie...
Mich is going to study in LimKokWing next Monday... you know...Valentine's Day... I do really worry about her... She is alone in that no-money-no-talk college... I wish I can go with her... Well, if the legendary genie's lamp does exist.... I really care about you, Mich...
I haven't received offer from MMU... but I know I would get it someday before June... and I have to go to Melacca Campus for one year... and then only back to Cyberjaya... One year seems a short period for everyone... but one year means a millenium to me...and Mich...
Finally... I feel like I'm changing into a better person... no... I'm already changing... Muahahahahaha... cough... cough.... sowee....
Currently I am working in KLCC now... in Polo Jeans Company...
Oh holy crap... I am paid to stand there to catch shoplifters aka bastards and to do bitchy folding works... It is an easy job... Did I say easy? It's damn boring and damn...errr..easy... The pay is quite good, much better than those who work very hard in supermarkets.... Well, nothing is perfect... my supervisor is a GAY...oh fuck... I hate GAY more than anything else... His name is Dexter... weird name...for a GAY... Anyway, he is nice to me... ... Mich...you gotta help me... if he trying to do something to me... My colleagues are good too... All of them include "Miss Dexter" treat me like a kid...and they call me Ah Vincent Boy since I am the youngest.... damn I hate that new nick... They always ask me to be good boy... not a hardworking staff... and they gonna gimme Polo Products if I be good boy... Now, I got 2 Polo T-Shirts which cost about RM 150 for free...from Miss Dexter... I am enjoying my work there...errr...unless that Dexter do something to me... Well, I am the only guy in the shop... the rest are girls... 5 of them...and a GAY!!! God bless me...
28th January 2005... I attended the gathering which purposely held for RK... Well, he is going back to New Zealand tonight... It was great...I mean...An unexpected event happened and everyone stunned their mouth like the Mars was going to hit the Earth... And they blamed me...well and Michele for not telling them...something... They even hammered and stunned again...when they saw us holding hands to prove our relationship... I was..."stunned" too... Honestly... I was reluctant to go to the gathering but...she grabbed me... Well, I knew people will find out... I had a bad feeling...but as Mich said... they have to know about it someday... Maybe she is right...but that doesn't mean...I'm wrong too... Victoria came to tell me that she couldn't believe it...she couldn't believe that I will do such things... Well, she is right... she knows me for 11 years... I realized that...I'm changing...to a better person...with more confidence... After the Mars crushed on the Earth... Mich went back because of curfew...hahaha... and then I sent Vic, Wendy, Ronald and Henry to another coffee shop while Lawrence sent the rest...RK, PY, JJ...and errr...don't remember... Wendy was crazy... she was...just crazy.... I don't wanna talk about it... Never let this rascal sit beside you when you're driving!
I was reminded by this song again... the most romantic song in my world... I gonna have my wife to sing this song on my wedding day....hahaha...too much thinking...
Eyes On Me
Whenever sang my songs
On the stage, on my own
Whenever say my words
Wishing they would be heard
I saw you smiling at me
Was it real or just my fantasy
You'd always be there in the corner
Of this tiny little bar
My last night here for you
Same old songs, just once more
My last night here with you?
Maybe yes, maybe no
I kind of liked it your way
How you shyly placed your eyes on me
Oh, did you ever know?
That I had my eyes on you
Darling, so there you are
With that look on your face
As if you're never hurt
As if you're never down
Shall I be the one for you
Who pinches you softly but sure
If frown is shown then
I will know that you are no dreamer
So let me come to you
Close as I wanted to be
Close enough for me
To feel your heart beating fast
And stay there as I whisper
How I loved your peaceful eyes on me
Did you ever know
That I had mine on you
Darling, so share with me
Your love if you have enough
Your tears if you're holding back
Or pain if that's what it is
How can I let you know
I'm more than the dress and the voice
Just reach me out then
You will know that you're not dreaming
No matter what I do... everyone never change their thoughts that I am still a kid and I know nothing... In fact, I do know more than anyone else... I could read people mind... from their expressions... and their eyes...
I have to make my own decision... and I'm a kid...NO MORE....
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