Vincent's Blog

2006-01-02T20:18:00.000+08:00

This Is My Life, Rated
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Hmmm... this sucks

2005-11-21T02:38:00.000+08:00

Looking back at my last post... I totally have no idea where to start... Well, start from Saturday I guess... It was a wonderful weekend. Mich and I watched "Chicken Little"... she was so excited like a child has KFC for her meal... Imagine Bird Flu... will that 4 eyes chicken able to save the world? or himself from being slaughter by the Chinese? Anyway, I was so glad to see her so excited...she is adorable in some ways...

The life in MMU is damn boring... Those bastards never put their sight off from DOTA. I was tired of it long time ago...

The church is planning something huge this year... inviting 96 kids to a Christmas Party... kids...sighhh... anyone wish to sponsor something to my church, please feel free to call me...

Let's see what movies I'm planning to kill...

King Kong
Narnia
Hoodwinked
The New World

forgot the rest...

2005-09-30T22:54:00.000+08:00

Back to the world of blogging. Well, many things happened lately... enjoying a good life in MMU... now having final exam... ha...only 2 more subjects...frickin' hell... I'm not dead yet...

2005-07-05T23:26:00.000+08:00

I'm so bored here... nobody wants to talk to me... Tried to look for someone to talk to... but couldn't reach Mich... perhaps she is too busy... or she has something to do... I don't know.. Got little bit fever...I guess... I don want take those drugs like panadol... I hate medicine..or drugs... All my roommates are busy with their webpage assignment... I did it many years ago.. It was just a piece of cake for me... Back to topic.. today is my most fuckin bad day... Kill me please...anyone?

2005-06-27T00:35:00.000+08:00

Three days ago... I was driving back to KL... I miss KL alot... especially Michie and my buddies in church... I was so desperate to see the Twin Towers again... even though I was very tired of the two CORNS...I didnt realize Tommy is getting fat... He fought with the dog next-door on Saturday... Pity him... I met Mich on Friday and Saturday... we had "good fights"..hahaha... I always lost... Don't know why... she has greater strength... I guess... Well, I'm in MMU now... sighhhh...

2005-06-27T00:32:00.000+08:00

Right after my previous post...

23 June 2005 - Mich had declared Mutual Peace to you...
23 June 2005 - Vince had gladly accepted Mich's Mutual Peace... the whole world rejoiced for the end of war...

2005-06-23T22:27:00.000+08:00

In MMU now... I'm damn bored... everyone is having their activity... Eventually, I feel so lonely... I called Mich just now... she was too busy to talk to me... I hoped I didnt know the reason... but for God's sake...the stupid phoneline connection told me... Maybe she felt I was bugging her... hope this is not true... but I jus wanna ask her something and give her a surprise... But...damn... However...if she said something... I will believe her... but she didn't... that broke my heart into thousands pieces...

Lie...
I'm like Him... I hate people who lies to me... especially my beloved.. its not only bout lie... it does stack with the element of betrayal... People lie to me I don care... but... if you lie to me...I do collapse... Why why why why...? I'm so confused... Why why why why why why why why why...

Why...

2005-06-11T00:21:00.000+08:00

Friday Night
I was back to KL at 8pm... I was so exhausted... but delighted... Finally, I was no more under control of those O.C aka Ominous Communists... Actually... it was not that bad... They were good...but not all of them... Anyway... no more Orientation... no more Hell... it's about fun and busy life now... Do pray for me that I would become a multimedia expert...

Today
Early morning... I went to Imbi Plaza with Enoch and a friend of him... errr.. to survey laptop... found Acer TravelMate 4151 with PCI 128 graphic card, DVD writer, 512DDR2 ram, 3 years warranty... for RM4500... The price was over my budget... but it was an attractive price... my dad said no problem for it... but I didn't feel like using so much my dad's money... MMU was known as Making Money U for me... I could use up to RM 10k for the starting of university... laptop, first semester fee, hostel fee, book fee and stationary fee which costs RM268...

In the afternoon... I went out with Mich... We went to supermarket to buy something.. She bought a pair of T-Shirt for us... It was great to see her... I feel relieved...totally refreshed after few days of tormenting "military training"... Was it a cry of sorrow or joy? I was so confused bout it...

I will be going back on tomorrow night... and I will be back on Friday... My promise to you

Missing you : Day 7
Met you : Day 7

2005-06-06T19:19:00.000+08:00

The MMU Orientation sucks... those so called O.C (Orientation Committee) were devils... They were burning my vain and my blood... I yearn to see them suffer! Though its only second day... I started to miss everyone... and you the most... "How are you doing, Mich? Do you miss me?"

4 more days to go... and I will be free and enjoy true MMU lifestyle... Orientation is hellish time...

Missing you : Day 2

2005-06-05T02:39:00.000+08:00

Its 5th of June... I'm going to study in Cyberjaya... with the heart of reluctance, disturbance and worry... I was in very bad mood these few days... even had a little argue with Mich two days ago...However we declared peace yesterday... I'm desperate to see her smile again... Yesterday...well, I'm typing this at midnight of 5th June...okay...Yesterday...evening... I met Mich... We had a great time (Thank God Mich didn't cry ...I would cry if she did so!)... I won't forget that day... I...love you, Mich...

"Missing" List...
1. Michie!
2. Enoch and Sis
3. My buddies! (Yuen, Gasper, Henry, WK...and more...)
4. Tommy the lazy kitten...
5. Family and Church...

Gotta go... All the best for myself... A new multimedia expert is about to born... Muahahahahaha...

Missing you : Day 1

2005-05-29T00:03:00.000+08:00

27th May
Mich and I went to watch Madagascar...with Mich's little cousin sister and...our friends... Mich wanted to see this "Animated National Geographic" long time ago... and I didn't fail her... I brought her to the premiere show... However she didn't feel quite happy as usual... and I always know the reason... "We were in a brighter cinema that day..." Recently.. I was having a serious problem... A problem that many have to go through... Well, as usual... Let God handles it...

Back to the animated movie... It was a stupid movie with stupid jokes...if not.. people won't laugh so much till they rolled on floor like those penguins... Overall I kinda like the movie... but not as much as Shrek II... Between... I kinda like those penguins... they rocks... and cute... with cool quotes.. like "This sucks" when they reached Artatica by hijacking the cargo ship...

My next upcoming movies - Batman Begins, Fantastic 4, War of The World....

Just a few words to defend myself... "I tried to like them... but they never like me before..."

June is coming.... I don't feel good... something terrible is gonna happen... I don't wish it's true... Worry has started to conquer my heart... and its getting heavier than before... Fear of losing something dear... Fear and worry are going to rule my days soon... very soon...

2005-05-25T22:03:00.000+08:00

Well, I quit my job last Sunday...

Monday
I went to play badminton with friends... and I couldn't play well anymore... It was a boring day... I spent the whole evening on computer again... a stepping stone for returning to the visual world again...

Tuesday
Trapped inside the visual world... the whole day... kill me please...

Today
Finally... I could meet Mich... It was the opening day of her college... After her torturing lecture from the college... she came to my house and tried to ruin my pc... After that we had lunch together... hahaha... I got free lunch today....

The clock is ticking too fast... its 25th today! 10 more days... and I gotta move to Cyberjaya... tell me this is not true... driving there alone... with large luggages ( I was thinking to bring my fridge there)... sharing a room with strangers... Damn it... Honestly... I can't wait to leave my home... Away from my mom is the main reason... I'm totally tired of her impressive non-stop talking skill... I rather meet the university's lecturers everyday...since my mom only talk crap... Well, she went to dental today and the dentist stole a tooth from her... Amazingly... my mom still can talk...even more after that... Somehow... I wonder if the dentist put something unnatural in my mom's mouth... I hate dentist... Hahaha...

No matter how strong is my determination to go... I will always...remember you...cherish every moment that we had together... I promise...

Forget bout the past is the hardest thing to do... The past will still haunt you...no matter how many miles road you have walked... Try not to go back... Always overcome it with a better tomorrow...

2005-05-19T23:32:00.000+08:00

"The Dark Side of the Force is a pathway to many abilities some consider to be unnatural."

Yes... I watched Star Wars... WWWHHAAAPP woor whhirr blink oooohhher! That's my favorite quote from Artoo-D2 when it was in danger... The movie was just... excellent... best of all six episode... better than ROTJ... Many new droids, battle cruisers, assault ships, massive battlefields, planets... and the love story of Anakin and Padme... Well... George Lucas said that this is the darkest episode... and IT IS DARKER than I thought....

Let's see whose limbs or head get "light-sabered" again...

Count Dooku lost his two hands...and his head... (A friend from a SW forum told me one month ago... I didn't believe him... and...he was right...)
Mace Windu lost a hand too...err...before his ass was kicked far far away....
General Grevious lost two limbs but he still had 4.... (He failed me... He died too soon... just a minor character...)
Anakin... lost his two legs... and his hand again... (Don't look at his face... Ouch....)

Errr... some really painful scenes too see...
Aayla Secura (A blue female Jedi with a sexy outfit) was blasted thousands times by Clone Troopers... even she was dead...
Ki-Adi-Mundi (The Jedi with cone-head) was left "in front" of the battlefield... and... got blasted again...
Anakin was burnt...no legs...no hands...no...err... maybe he still has "IT"....
Most Walking Carpets (Wookies) died because of their stupid barbarian-style battle skills.... you could see few Wookies Tarzens...
Artoo saved the world in the opening... and it did fight...
Jar Jar Bink and Boss Nass were here again...

Overall... the darkest thing in the movie...
When Anakin was playing fencing with his master... the way he talked to his master... the way he fought his master... and his final word for his master...errr...as Anakin... " I hate you..." (Good job, Hayden...you're definitely an evil actor...)

Well... many movies can't escape this... well...stupid scene...
Those useless but funny battle droids were playing the roles of "clown bots"... They did say "sorry"..."excuse me"... "uh oh"...and more
The green err...lizard that Obi Wan was riding in Utapau... the ugliest and noisiest lizard I ever seen... It has feathers... I suppose...
Remember the Emperor's Red Royal Guards in ROTJ? They no more standing like statues... They are more active in this episode...

Enough for spoilers... Anyway... I read the all SW novels errr...online novels last year... so... I was "spoilt" enough before I watched this episode... sighhh...

Poor Mich fell asleep in the cinema... I bet she didn't like the movie... Anyway... we smuggled two large popcorn chickens this time... hehehe... I really had fun today... especially an adorable girl leaning on your shoulder and sleep... hahaha... Even the Coffee Bean staff told me not to add anymore sugar in Mich's coffee...coz she was sweet enough... Hahaha....horny bastard...

Last word... thank you for the beautiful day...and...you're really beautiful today...err... I mean...always... hehehe...

2005-05-11T00:50:00.000+08:00

By the order of someone... I have to update my blog... so I'm gonna try to refresh what is still left in my mind... well...a month ago...

-working life SUCKS... Everyday was just the same... working life is totally boring... Well... I do miss YOU everyday... wondering if you miss me too... hehehehe...

-Mich is not going to Penang anymore... I should have said this last...errr..month... She changed the course... for ME? Errrr... think so... She gonna be a graphic designer soon...hahaha...

-Let's see... how many movie I've watched since my last post... Hitch with Mich, XxX with Mich...well..she fell asleep...sighhhh, Kingdom of Heaven with a bunch of guy... sighhh...

well...that's all I could remember... sighhhh...

2005-03-18T22:07:00.000+08:00

There was no "try" in my life... I never tried to do something impossible... knowing its impossible... but now... I'm asking someone to try... hahaha...funny...

TRY by NELLY FURTADO
All I know
Is everything is not as it's sold
but the more I grow the less I know
And I have lived so many lives
Though I'm not old
And the more I see, the less I grow
The fewer the seeds the more I sow

Then I see you standing there
Wanting more from me
And all I can do is try
Then I see you standing there
Wanting more from me
And all I can do is try
Try... Try

I wish I hadn't seen all of the realness
And all the real people, are really not real at all
The more I learn, the more I learn
The more I cry the more I cry
As I say goodbye to the way of life
I thought I had designed for me

Then I see you standing there
Wanting more from me
And all I can do is try
Then I see you standing there
I'm all I'll ever be
But all I can do is try ohh try
Try... Try... Try... Try

All of the moments that already passed
already passed)
We'll try to go back and make them last
(make them last)
All of the things we want each other to be
(each other to be)
We never will be, we never will be
And that's wonderful, that's life
That's you baby
This is me baby
We are, we are, we are, we are, we are, we are
Free
In our love
We are free in our love
Try...

2005-03-15T22:13:00.000+08:00

2005-03-15T00:01:00.000+08:00

Last Thursday
Yes D-Day... I'm one of those fallen worthless soldiers... those who said I did a great job... I considered them as liars... for those who condemned me... fuck off... My auntie was one of these "low educated" and "forever a cheap employee" who condemned my result... Since I did very good in my last two major exams... she was not satisfied with my result... I raised my voice on the phone and I told her not to disturb me anymore... She was speechless like her mouth was stuck with a rotting papaya... Enough for my result... I never expect to have such dissapointing result... I don't deserve this result... Many people do too... Especially those who worked hard enough... Overall... it was a day of sorrow to many... Well, I did not give out my very best for the exam... But I could get much more than that... I have lost a battle in my life...for the very first time...

After taking my result... I went to KLCC...again..with Mich....and... a gooseberry, Yuen... We watched Robots...an animation for kids...like Mich... she was so addicted to the movie...while I...enjoyed...it too... consider that "it" as something else.. Yuen was yawning..and... uncomfortable... I think... Somehow... he had free lunch, free ride and free movie... I guess he was happy anyway... Before KLCC, we went to TARC... Mich gonna leave for Penang to study for one year... due to lack of credits in her result... Damn it... life is full of trials... She can't be alone there... What else I can do now...

2005-03-09T23:20:00.000+08:00

I'm still here... checked my vital sign... I'm still alive...
Not much about these few days... Tomorrow is 10th March... somebody said it is like D-Day for us... Well...I still don't get it... I thought D-Day only for German... and Hitler... Allied countries suicided their military forces to break thru German... I would say tomorrow is...Thursday...

Ermmm... Mich was so worry about her result... I didn't know what to do... but... I know she can make it... I know she tried her best... Gambate! Piggie boleh!

I met Lin Jie in KLCC LRT station today...well, his infamous name wouldn't appear in my blog if he didn't ask me about MMU... that moron wants to study Multimedia Designs... since he doesnt know what is it...at all... holy crap.... I talked to him about the Pre-U in Melacca for one year... and he was like.. no problem at all... I bet he is still a moron after graduated... what he said reminds me of June again... I'm counting how many days are left... and... what else I gotta do before the end of May...

I feel like I'm losing something... but I don't know what is it.... Since my life changed... I feel ...something from the past is still haunting me... following each steps I walked... I turned around... no one was there... I could feel it's presence... It never ceased to hunt me... It burned my blood with rage...tore my heart into the dark cold valley... poisoned my mind with discourages... It's like ambushing me from no direction... I lost it...but it didnt... it didn't give up me...

2005-03-01T22:16:00.000+08:00

Last Saturday
It was a boring day... I was working...nah... just standing for nothing... The clock was ticking slowly... I was thinking of time-machine... Well...supposed to have lunch with Sis... but that stupid GAY Dexter couldn't be punctual... his apologize did not recover anything... Gay sucks... WTF...and I was eating alone again... Sob sob...

Monday...
Another working day... But I was not eating alone this time...I had lunch with Mich and her mom at Dome... The food there sucks but pricy... Anyway, I had a free lunch because Mich's mom paid the bill... Hahaha... I was so glad to meet her mom... Between... I had been eating my lunch alone since I started working... except when Mich visited me... and few times with Wai Kit....

Today...
My off day! Finally... I went to Mich's house... I really dislike her dogs... those little fellows were so fierce to me... I hate dogs... Mich wanted to study architexture design...but her dad didn't allow her to do so... At noon... we went to KLCC and watched movie...as usual? Damn it... it was KLCC again... It was my first Chinese movie in cinema... It was another colorful day... Hehehehe...

Thinking back about few days ago... SR quit his job in Burberry due to National Service aka Nutty Slavery... He will be leaving everything behind for 3 months... pity Vanessa... while... I gotta leave in June...for 1 year... this is not good... I don't feel like going there alone... I'm worry... that I would lose something dear... There are many things I have to do before June haunts me... I wish I have more time...

2005-02-24T22:11:00.000+08:00

Yesterday... I was in very bad mood... I didn't talk to anyone in my work place... Those idiots were so curious and so they started to disturb me... That horny bitch, Sylvia asked me was it my first monthly period... I was so mad... and I feel like activate a nuclear missile and suicide with those idiots... Later... I got flu and light fever... damn it...

I'm still in very bad mood... I don't even feel like talking to anyone... I just hope I could lean on Mich's shoulder... sighhh...you there, Mich?

2005-02-22T22:56:00.000+08:00

I'm too tired to think and type my blog... I'm totally exhausted and I don't feel comfortable... something is haunting me badly...

Last Wednesday...
I watched Constatine with Mich... The movie was great... and I love it... (unfinished post)

Last Saturday...
I got American Idiots from Mich... and I did something stupid... (unfinished post)

Today
Mich came to my house... she met my Mum... Dad wasn't here... my sister went to school... Mich and my Mum had a nice chat... I felt great to see that.... I was thinking if I meet her parents... will that happens too?

Something terrible happened to me... I didn't know what was going on... and I feel so stupid... I was wondering how come I couldn't do it... Is it HIM playing something with me.... or I'm gonna have some serious problems... I feel so sorry...to myself... to somebody...

It is a hellish day for me... Something is haunting my mind badly... I feel like I'm gonna crazy...

2005-02-16T01:49:00.000+08:00

Mich is not going to study in LimKokWing anymore... she didn't show up on the first day - 14th Feb... She changed her mind not to study in LimKokWing... I feel good and bad for her... Well, she doesn't need to watse so much time and get so tired... just to go to the far far away college... ermmm...but I know she wants to study there... I wish I could do something...

Valentine's day... I was working (oh fuck...) I was so upset (sighh...) something happened (God help me!) I was so down (Damn it...) I was eating alone (not again...) and then I received a message from Sis... asking me how's my Valentine's day... I didnt tell her anything... and she told me she gonna date a monkey out (gorrila? orang utan?)... I feel better... she told me to become a good boy too... sighhh...she still treat me like a little brother... But the sky turned bright after I finished my work... Hohoho... I was so glad to see my dear Mich... I feel much better... and we...ahem...I was a naughty boy... sorry, Sis...
I had an unforgettable Valentine's Day...

New blog template 50% completed... really not much time for it... guess I gotta buy American Idiots by Green Day to get the damn cool song...sighhh... my wallet dying...softly...

I got an admission offer from MMU - Multimedia University... I don't feel like going there... but I have to... I'm sorry...for everything....

Going to watch Constatine with Mich on Wednesday... hahaha... finally I'm free from working life... well.... just 24 hours... hahaha... damn it...I still have to go to KLCC... oh man... I'm having KLCC-phobia....

I don't have much time for blogging... sighhhh....

2005-02-10T23:19:00.000+08:00

Working life... sucks... everyday... I drive to LRT station and then take LRT to KLCC... and then... the odour of Mexican Bun from Rotiboy... and then walk to 1st floor...and then... my "lovely" working place... Life is always the same now... Only two words describe my daily activity - work and sleep... errmmm...sorry...include that with "eat"also...

Life is busy... no time for blogging anymore... my work is quite good... People from there are good... They like me and I like them too... I'm happy working with those playful monkeys...

Chinese New Year... hahahaha... good to see my grandma, grandpa, aunties and uncles... and cousins... Well, I didn't know I have so many cousins... hahaha... Maybe next year... more cousins will appear? Nonono...more angpau to give away... Should be more uncles and aunties... Hahaha...

Constatine... a horror movie that I must watch... angels, fallen angels (Lucifer?) and demons... Heaven and Hell... and that cool subtitle... "A war conceived in Hell, started in Heaven, ends in Earth..." Must watch...must watch....

I heard that Final Fantasy - Advent Children is coming out on 14 March.... I GOTTA WATCH THE FIRST SHOW! I SWEAR! DAMN IT FOR SO LONG I BEEN WAITED!!!! DAMN SQUARE-ENIX FOR TESTING MY PATIENCE!!!

Now I'm up to my new blog template due to my dear lovely Mich... She doesn't like the current "darky" template...so I gotta kick away Velvet Nightmare...and replace it with Boulevard of Broken Dreams... Can somebody please look for the song "Boulevard of Broken Dreams" by "Greenday" for me? Send to my email please? Thank you very muchie...

Mich is going to study in LimKokWing next Monday... you know...Valentine's Day... I do really worry about her... She is alone in that no-money-no-talk college... I wish I can go with her... Well, if the legendary genie's lamp does exist.... I really care about you, Mich...

I haven't received offer from MMU... but I know I would get it someday before June... and I have to go to Melacca Campus for one year... and then only back to Cyberjaya... One year seems a short period for everyone... but one year means a millenium to me...and Mich...

Finally... I feel like I'm changing into a better person... no... I'm already changing... Muahahahahaha... cough... cough.... sowee....

2005-02-01T01:22:00.001+08:00

Currently I am working in KLCC now... in Polo Jeans Company...
Oh holy crap... I am paid to stand there to catch shoplifters aka bastards and to do bitchy folding works... It is an easy job... Did I say easy? It's damn boring and damn...errr..easy... The pay is quite good, much better than those who work very hard in supermarkets.... Well, nothing is perfect... my supervisor is a GAY...oh fuck... I hate GAY more than anything else... His name is Dexter... weird name...for a GAY... Anyway, he is nice to me... ... Mich...you gotta help me... if he trying to do something to me... My colleagues are good too... All of them include "Miss Dexter" treat me like a kid...and they call me Ah Vincent Boy since I am the youngest.... damn I hate that new nick... They always ask me to be good boy... not a hardworking staff... and they gonna gimme Polo Products if I be good boy... Now, I got 2 Polo T-Shirts which cost about RM 150 for free...from Miss Dexter... I am enjoying my work there...errr...unless that Dexter do something to me... Well, I am the only guy in the shop... the rest are girls... 5 of them...and a GAY!!! God bless me...

2005-02-01T01:22:00.000+08:00

28th January 2005... I attended the gathering which purposely held for RK... Well, he is going back to New Zealand tonight... It was great...I mean...An unexpected event happened and everyone stunned their mouth like the Mars was going to hit the Earth... And they blamed me...well and Michele for not telling them...something... They even hammered and stunned again...when they saw us holding hands to prove our relationship... I was..."stunned" too... Honestly... I was reluctant to go to the gathering but...she grabbed me... Well, I knew people will find out... I had a bad feeling...but as Mich said... they have to know about it someday... Maybe she is right...but that doesn't mean...I'm wrong too... Victoria came to tell me that she couldn't believe it...she couldn't believe that I will do such things... Well, she is right... she knows me for 11 years... I realized that...I'm changing...to a better person...with more confidence... After the Mars crushed on the Earth... Mich went back because of curfew...hahaha... and then I sent Vic, Wendy, Ronald and Henry to another coffee shop while Lawrence sent the rest...RK, PY, JJ...and errr...don't remember... Wendy was crazy... she was...just crazy.... I don't wanna talk about it... Never let this rascal sit beside you when you're driving!

I was reminded by this song again... the most romantic song in my world... I gonna have my wife to sing this song on my wedding day....hahaha...too much thinking...

Eyes On Me
Whenever sang my songs
On the stage, on my own
Whenever say my words
Wishing they would be heard
I saw you smiling at me
Was it real or just my fantasy
You'd always be there in the corner
Of this tiny little bar
My last night here for you
Same old songs, just once more
My last night here with you?
Maybe yes, maybe no
I kind of liked it your way
How you shyly placed your eyes on me
Oh, did you ever know?
That I had my eyes on you
Darling, so there you are
With that look on your face
As if you're never hurt
As if you're never down
Shall I be the one for you
Who pinches you softly but sure
If frown is shown then
I will know that you are no dreamer
So let me come to you
Close as I wanted to be
Close enough for me
To feel your heart beating fast
And stay there as I whisper
How I loved your peaceful eyes on me
Did you ever know
That I had mine on you
Darling, so share with me
Your love if you have enough
Your tears if you're holding back
Or pain if that's what it is
How can I let you know
I'm more than the dress and the voice
Just reach me out then
You will know that you're not dreaming

2005-02-01T01:20:00.000+08:00

No matter what I do... everyone never change their thoughts that I am still a kid and I know nothing... In fact, I do know more than anyone else... I could read people mind... from their expressions... and their eyes...
I have to make my own decision... and I'm a kid...NO MORE....

2005-01-26T22:00:00.000+08:00

Finacial crisis...
I spent too much... Let's see what I have now...
This week pocket money, 50 bucks
300+ bucks still freezing in Sogo!
Don't know which bastard owe me 40 bucks...
My savings... -confidential-

I need to work soon if not...I am not gonna get my OWN powerful computer!!!

2005-01-25T01:52:00.000+08:00

23rd January 2005
I was having a nightmare... I heard Jenova's theme... and I saw Jenova! Ugly... oh...its my phone ringtone, Jenova...incoming message... It was from Sis... saying that what... can't wait for the day... have fun... I was so blur...couldn't read it properly... it was about the fund dinner organized by my church... well, in another word... a big event for our church. As I woke up...errmm..completely? I went to bath... and Enoch called... as I told him to wake me up at 10am... Alright...after that, I drove to Enoch's house...funny was...when I was driving on the way to Enoch's house... I hit a bumper with 70kmph...and knocked my head on the car roof... Ouch.... Skipping the small matters... we arrived in the club... My mind was right...the same people
who worked hard for the church again..."Where the hell are others?" I asked myself.... knowing I would get the same answer... First, we carried all those heavy speakers, monitors, mixers... and more... while the girls were decorating the ballroom... I didn't even know my leg was cut... Anyway... I felt that I was not a great help... I was thinking if I am strong enough...to do everything... not letting someone do it...
The event was great...and ended with good feedbacks... I tried my best to help... but I don't feel enough...If I were someone...

Michele was curious and asked me why I would do these things for the church...
I'm not doing it because of I expecting something from Him...or sacrificing myself to the church... The reason is...I don't want see those who I love worked so hard... I just want to reduce their difficulties... or maybe...the church...mean a lot to my life...

2005-01-25T01:51:00.000+08:00

19th January 2005

I quit my job in sogo after nine days...
Summaary of the nine day
- This is my first job...
- I met few special customers...
*Unfinished Post*

2005-01-12T15:55:00.000+08:00

130km driving...
Yesterday...I drove to Cyberjaya... It was a tiring journey... Yes, LimKokWing was good... but MMU was much better for me... I will come out with degree if I study in MMU... Advance Diploma if LimKokWing...

At night, I stayed back in Enoch's house...
Something terrible happened...

Somewhere in my memory...
I've lost all sense of time...
And tomorrow can never be...
Cuz yesterday is all that fills my mind...
There's no use looking back or wondering...
How it should be now or might have been...
This I know but still I can't find ways to let you go

2005-01-12T14:52:00.000+08:00

Monday...
The week after the first day of New Year...
I almost spent the whole week inside my church... being a computer freak... anyway it was fun to do what I like... well, designing a magazine wasn't easy as you thought... the editorial team was not well organized...and with many disagreements...but we managed to do a fantastic job... I guess... In fact, I was having difficulties to work with other people... I prefer to work alone...
"Humans are born to be selfish..." a quote from Wilson haunted my mind... I wish I could share my knowledge...

Sis teased me about my New Year Resolution... and she thought I was mad at her... well, I didn't... and I didn't know how to explain to her... Anyway, I'm wondering how she got the banana and the pear from... Maybe she got them from a kind visitor in the National Zoo? Monkey sis inside the cage!!!...Hehehe...

My driving skills are much better now... I hope so... and I hate slope, taxi, bas, chicken, buffalo, duck, goose.....

I didn't show up on Michele's birthday party... I gave an unreasonable excuse... even though she tried so hard to persuade me for the whole night...my petrified heart was harder...and after I read Yang and Guardog's blog... I feel guilty... of not fulfilling her little wish... Maybe this is not the time yet....to let everyone know about it... I'm deeply sorry...Michele...

Not long time ago... I was running through the flame... I was toasted...and fried...
Michele told me something I could not imagine... It was like a piece of cold ice stroke through my vain... I thought I would never accept it... but I'm okay with it now... I guess... Well, I have to run through the flame again... I must not fall...again...

I made up my mind to study in MMU... Multimedia University...in Cyberjaya...

2005-01-03T03:02:00.000+08:00

Hooray! Happy New Year to me...
The atmosphere of this New Year was greatly destroyed by the Mega-Tsunami...
So what is Tsunami? How does it happen?
Okay, first you grab the Aquamarine and summon the legendary sea monster, Leviathan... that skinny scaled monster will crack the surface and provide strength for the sea water... and Tsunami is created to cover everything up with water... according to Final Fantasy.... Sorry I was kidding... How do I know about Tsunami? I'm not a geologist, mind you...

Seriously, this deadly disaster which killed so many lives and flooded the nations with sorrow, grief and fear... Everybody was blaming the devil who was behind these waves of death... Well, for me... It was Him... He did this to teach us a lesson and to show us the sign of the end of days...

Someone asked me about my New Year Resolution... Well, I guess she didn't hear what I said... Ermmm... Well, I want to get a girl friend before I'm 20... Two more years to go... Hahahaha... Well, it's definitely hard to get someone who really intends to know me... It would be an impossible resolution... like lose some weight for you...Hehehehe...Just kidding...

About Christmas and New Year...
I was hibernating in my cave...well my room... and yes, I rather be all alone than... You're right..Enoch... I can't deny that you're my best friend...Anyway...I had fun... I guess....

I read TeckPei's blog... he keeps mentioning my name in his blog because Yuen and I grabbed all the prizes in Generals... Well, it is not the strategy or what quality...it is about your agility and cooperation among allies... Got it? Hehehe...I haven't show you my Zero Hour Super Weapon Rush.... and Air Force Striking Non-Stop Like Minigun Bullets.... I'm bragging...hahaha....

I'm damn tired of driving the whole day... Thanks to my best friend, Enoch who spent his time on me this destructive and yet offensive driver.... Manual-Gear sucks sucks sucks... I need a car with Auto-Gear... I was wrong…Oh God, hear my plea... drop me what I want... by using parachute so the car won't damage... Thank You...

2004-12-20T23:44:00.000+08:00

After 5 days and everyone gonna say....

Hohoho Merry Christmas...

Jingle bell, Batman fell,
Robin laid an egg,
Bat-Mobile, lost one wheel,
And Joker got a way...

2004-12-20T23:42:00.000+08:00

Sunday...I went to Genting again... Well, the interview was great and I guess I did a greater job this time.

Summary of the day...
I met the same guy who interviewed me last time again...
Lin Jie was the biggest loser of all...
Taxi drivers from Genting equalizing Idiots of the day...
A guy from Johore failed the interview and he had to go back by bas for 2 hours... How sad...
I was so restless...

Currently, I'm waiting for their call and once that happens... I will be away for 3 months...

2004-12-16T21:24:00.000+08:00

My new homepage!

2004-12-14T02:59:00.000+08:00

Sunday
Woke up at 7am... Today didn't go to church, I went to Genting! Yea... Jac, Dina and Vick are performing in Arena of Star... but who cares about them... I went there for interview! Holy crap... more than 400 people went to Genting for the interview... Me, Kit, Alien, Lin Jie and somebody I don't know were 5 of the 400. We got our numbers... 168, 170, 172, 176, 178.... Since we have so much time to kill...so we went to hang around in First World Plaza... and then back to HRD...and then First World again... We spent about 8 hours in Genting. Ermmm... Lin Jie was something wrong with him. He talked to every pretty girls in the HRD waiting room. And so we get to know this girl from Penang... not "we" actually... I didn't really talk to her... I just answered what she asked...ermmm...she asked too much, I think...Well, Lin Jie was.... you know... He asked for her age, phone number....blah blah blah....2 hours talk... Finally,at 6pm something...here came ....

My First Interview...
Gan : Have a seat please.
Me : (Gimme the job, Gimme the job) Yes, Mister. I forgot to fill one of the blanks in the form. I know Mr.Jeffrey Ng who works in this place. He is a manager of....
Gan : *Surprised* How do you know him?
Me : (Errrr....) My friend's uncle.
Gan : Oh, can you show your IC?
Me : (I'm not pendatang haram la) Sure
Gan : All your documents please.
Me : (OMG, I'm empty handed) I just finished my SPM and I'm waiting for the result...so I don't have any...
Gan : I'm so sorry, I would like to consider you but you must have at least a document that shows you've finished your school like your Leave School Certificate and your trial result or even your PMR result.
Me : May I know why...(I know I'm stupid...this is my first interview)
Gan : This is our rule. You can come back on Saturday...
Me : What about tomorrow?
Gan : We only open for interview on Saturday and Sunday.
Me : O....k....
Gan : I'm so sorry...
Me : Never mind. Thanks anyway. *Got my ass from the chair*
Gan : Remember to come back on next Saturday.
Me : ( I know you miss me and I'll be back, honey!) Sure...
Gan : Please ask your friend to come in.
Me : (He doesn't have anything with him too...) OK!

And all of us failed the interview...we didn't bring anything to show them...Hahaha... We will be back on this Saturday! We gonna get the job because we have "backup"!

Summary of the day:
I failed my first interview...
Lin Jie is a sucker...
Genting is so crowded on Sunday...
Taxi drivers in Genting are beggars and "chasers"...
I was damn tired...

2004-12-11T02:03:00.000+08:00

SPM is over... everyone was crapping and bragging in their blogs... Finally, it's my turn now...
Few questions asked by many people...
What to do next? Well, I want to go as far as I can...
How do you feel? Well, a new era has began... I feel good and bad... nothing much changed...
How was SPM? Dare not to think about it... God will mark my papers...

Yes, I'm no more a schoolboy... and I have alot of things to do... the biggest project is my Online Designing Company - Shinra-Designs.com
Shinra-Designs Beta

After the fatal exam and my graduation of high school, life becomes boring... BUT I do not have much time...
Talking about school friends... for those who are going for National Service, God bless you... Somone invited me to join their class's party... but what's the point to become an ugly ducking among the swans. Primary school classmates also have a reunion party in somewhere else... again... what's the point to go there since I do not recognise many of them. The main reason is... I don't want to remember anything... meaningless childhood...

Dad said my second car will be ready soon... sighhh...but I don't have the chance to drive it...Yea, I do not have much time left... I talked to many people from the church about the part time job in Genting. Well, they said something I didn't expect for.... "When you leave, who is going to do all the designing jobs for the church....who is going to help me?" Ermmm... I will try to finish them as soon as possible... BUT I just do it for the church...not intend to help anyone... Yesterday, I went to church to continue my work... alone... after messing around with Yuen, Kit, XL, Lawrence and more. Enoch was too busy for his upcoming exams and many more church members had gone like the wind... Well, I have to do it on my own... Maybe I should spend few more days in church....Sighhhhh... On the same day, I was walking from my church back to my house... and I saw this Malay lady with her cats... about 6 white cats with blue eyes there... they were so cute! I wished I could have one... but we have many "anti-cat" here in my place...

Now, I'm learning Flash when my schedule is not so tight... Did I say schedule? Forget it, that thing never exist in my life. My homepage is ready soon if I'm hardworkng enough... Well, guess I gotta spend more time in church...since I made a commitment to....errrmmm....

Well, more crappy stuff after the interview in Genting.

2004-11-15T22:51:00.000+08:00

Sunday
No church... how rarely. We went to a park with waterfall... many church members didn't show up their expensive faces... I could count the numbers out with my ten toes. Anyway... we had fun... I had to say so...since I will be away from KL for several months right after the dreadful exam.

2004-11-11T02:03:00.000+08:00

SPM... 50% Construction Completed...
6 more subjects coming soon...
Given 2 weeks break...
Hell is awaiting ahead...
I'm damn tired...

2004-11-05T01:53:00.000+08:00

This morning was having the add math paper, as I stepped into the class... I could hear a subtitle from Silent Hill, it says "Welcome To Hell"... and I was like... feel like giving up... All the negative feelings were haunting my weak mind... Well, thank God for His grace... add math paper wasn't that bad at all... at least I'll get an 4B... for sure... Anyway so what about other subjects? The worst time has gone... not a big deal for them... Vincent is here.... hohohoho... Angel of Success is behind him....opppssss...hehehehe....

The school magazine was given to every Form 5 students... and the hell wrong with those editors? My class webby address isn't correct? Hey... we paid you the money and you fucking guys just ruin fucking everything up with just one fucking "underscore"... fuck you guys...

Bush won the election! Hohoho...without Ohio... how impressive... poor Kerry...packs his rucksacks and go back to his father's orchard pick up cherries for the rest of his life... But whoever wins, Osama still playing hide and seek in his rabbit holes... It was funny to see 2 people in my MSN contact list with "Go Bush Go" and "Go Kerry Go"...too bad for Go Kerry Go, he lose the race...

FF7 - ADVENT CHILDREN - coming out in US early 2005

This is what SEXY means to me! Go Tifa Go! Kick some bad ass!

2004-11-01T01:21:00.000+08:00

OK, let's pray for Vincent that he can go through his exam with flying colors...
Sis shoke my hand... wishing me the best... her hand was so cold... well, she was selling ice-cream in the church...poor thing...nobody wanted to buy from her... ( I have something to tell you, but you were too busy to hear, I guess...)
Enoch told me not to be afraid...SPM is a piece of cake... (I've been tormented by fear for years, this thing didn't even come out in my mind...)

I just... need someone to talk to....anyone? God? Hear my plea....

2004-10-29T13:01:00.000+08:00

October is ending... and Nasty November is coming! Oh God, SPM is coming very soon! What I have done? Besides playing, fooling, eating and sleeping too much? Nothing at all!!!

"You can do it , Vincent... I'm always by your side, supporting you with everything I have... You can do it!!!
"I'm tired... of what you saying..."
"You know, never give up. You did a fantastic job in your last two major exam... why not this final exam?"
"It was the past... I've changed..."
"Don't dissapoint me! I put my hope in you... and I know you're smart boy!"
"A smart loser? Well, I'm no more a boy..."

Anyway, I will do my best in the final exam... and most importantly, I pray that He will always beside me...

2004-10-13T01:40:00.000+08:00

My upcoming new homepage - Vincent Valentine

2004-10-03T23:48:00.000+08:00

My Goddess, Kristin Kreuk

Full name:Kristin Laura Kreuk
Date of Birth: December 30, 1982
Residence: Vancouver, BC, Canada
Ethnicity: half-Chinese and half-Dutch
Height: 5'4"
School: Eric Hamber High school in Vancouver
Siblings: younger sister
Fav colours: purple and yellow
Fav actress: Jodie Foster
Hobbies: watching movies with friends, dancing, reading, writing, gymnastics

2004-10-03T23:07:00.000+08:00

Resident Evil: Apocalypse
Everyone is talking about this movie in their blogs...Well, I definitely agree with Wilson that Jill is hotter than Alice. And those lickers, zombies and doggies... one word... disgusting... The coolest "guy" in the movie is Nemesis... He is just awesome with heavy gatling gun. But the storyline is not that good... where the hell is William Birkin? I want him to fight with Nemesis ( I bet triple on William!!!)... and maybe someone should teach the lucky black idiot a lesson for being damn lucky... Just wonder how an idiot can survive in such crisis...

CG Jill and Jill played by Sienna
(picture edited by me!!!)

2004-10-03T23:06:00.000+08:00

Silence of the Lamb...
It makes me think of being silent is evil... is it? Well...sometimes...
For me, it is wise to keep silent...everytime... You won't cause some unwanted problems...and people don't bother you. But if you keep talking like the way Eminem rapping, people start to hate you and misunderstand you...even though they are like you. For me, the most irritating thing in the world... is having someone who has infinite stamina to talk and talk and talk and talk...with you most of the time... Ahhh...that kind of situation... sucks and hell... Still then, the most evil people are those who talk a lot behind a scene and know when to keep their mouth shut... other people think these wicked jerks are saints... Finally...for those people who don't talk at all... they are wise... but they have to pay something... something that no one wants to have... and guess what... people think they are proud and everyone is ignoring this kind of people...but they still receive criticizes from others... what a fantastic world...

2004-09-29T18:19:00.000+08:00

Two Italian female aid workers were released without conditions... in IRAQ... so what? Those ass holes will still continue kidnap people... 90% percent of them will be slaughtered and uploaded to the internet... 10% percent of them will be released...to make people think they are merciful? ~~Ridiculous~~ Bull shit!
Why those so called Holy War Fighters want to kidnap and behead those people who risk their life to aid the country?
Why they have to link terrorism to religion?
Why they have to cover their face like a ninja with power rangers' weapons and slaughter their victims cowardly? and then pray to their god?
And when Eminem will compose a nice song to boo those idiots? Count on you, dude!

2004-09-26T22:53:00.000+08:00

Finally, Andrew is axed in Malaysian Idol... Anyway, he did a great job for being himself all along the contest... unlike Jac who wants to be like Fantasia, Dinah who acts like a fat version Avril... and Vick..perhaps a new gen Lion King with same hairstyle of Simba. Great to hear from pastor that he going to launch his own album... all the best, Andrew...

2004-09-26T16:27:00.000+08:00

It's been seasons I never updated my blog. Thing goes pretty nastily...

A month ago, someone from my church passed away in his early time. Although I don't really know him, I hope he is doing well in his new home. Anyway, someone came to me and said something very weird... Well, He won't let me die so easily... He has "bunches" of trials to pour into my life.

Natalie asked me to add a tagboard...so everyone can share their comments in my blog... Well, there are only few people in my blog... besides those who have their own blogs... there are only less than 4 people... and most important, I don't think they will waste much time on my blog...maybe except you, Natalie...

Sometimes... when I see a big family fighting with each other... I feel they are extremely idiots. Evils were laughing of their stupidity... clapping their hands and having campaignes. Why they have to fight each other and need outsiders to settle their problems? So much hatred... and so much betrayal... Why they so eager to hate each other... while I yearned to be loved by someone... Has Him forgotten what we need?

Saturday
I went to play badminton in the morning till afternoon... The Youth was having "Pizza Feast"... and I missed it...purposely.

Sunday
Well, someone from the church again... wants me to do something....Did I say she wants me? She forced me... and I didn't say yes to agree. And this is one of the facts that I feel very unhappy about this church. Maybe some people will think that I'm fussy or anything... I just...can't do it... No one is going to know why... because everyone is not my anyone... I hate to explain... to everyone... and I know He knows it... I'm glad there is a God to understand every depths in your heart... and I hope I could have another to be like him...just one more person...

The Reason by Hoobastank

I'm not a perfect person
There are many things I wish I didn't do
But I continue learning
I never meant to do those things to you
And so I have to say before I go.
That I just want you to know

I've found a reason for me
To change who I used to be
A reason to start over new
And the reason is you

I'm sorry that I hurt you
Its something I must live with everyday
And all the pain I put you through
I wish I can take it all away
And be the one who catches your tears.
That's why I need you to hear

I've found a reason for me
To change who I used to be
A reason to start over new
And the reason is you

and my question is...who are "you"...and where are "you"...

2004-09-04T14:39:00.000+08:00

Close my eyes
So I can't see
And feel the winter
It was so cool
I hid myself
In a dark place
Praying for you
What I need
Is to hear a word
From you
For a moment...
For the last time...

I don't want to know...ANYMORE!!!
Please stay away from my mind...
I don't want to see... ANYMORE!!!
Please don't let me see your shadow...
I don't want to hear... ANYMORE!!!
Please stop whispering to me...

2004-09-02T15:36:00.000+08:00

You worked out a plan... and you've failed... everything... you feel disappointed...and you think God is not on your side...

flying-n@t says:
"You will never know what is going to happen end of this year. You won't even know what will be happening tomorrow. So don't hope too much, because the more you hope, the more they wont' be real. You know what, when you least expect it, something great mught come alone, sometimes better than you even planned for."

2004-08-30T21:46:00.000+08:00

Finally, the Olympic Games is over...
Well, the Games was a great event. China and Japan have shown that Asian can run faster than European.
There are few things for me to remember in the Games...
Soccer (Male)...
Iraq has made their soccer team into the semifinal even though bombs were blasting everywhere in their country. The Iraqi couch said that they were sharing a training field with goats and cattles.
Volleyball (Female)...
Ekaterina Gamova, a female player from Russia is about 7 feet tall. She is cute anyway... But her couch was the big bad loser... like the broadcaster said.."He is barking at his team again..."
Badminton
A loud and long "Sighhhhhh" for Malaysia...

Sunday
Well, church is going to held a building-fund raising dinner on this coming November. I really hope it works...
Sighhh... church member think that I like to wash dishes in the toilet... What I can do to kill my time? Sighhh...
Just got the news that Amy is going to Ukrain to study medical... how nice... study in overseas, away from home... I wish I can go to Ukrain too... learn how to make a nuclear missile...
One week holiday is over, what I have done? Let's see... Badminton...Add Math Project...Olympic... AVP...sleep and sleep and sleep...Zzzzzz

Saturday
It was a silly day... silly me went to do silly exercise... wasting my precious time... I rather do something that I hate to do - STUDY.

2004-08-21T23:39:00.000+08:00

Si solamente tu la lata ver, por que hacer tu salir me... Yo sensacion solitario.

2004-08-14T23:11:00.000+08:00

I didn't have a good rest yesterday. I watched the Olympic Opening Ceremony till 4am and I went to play basketball at 6am. I should have stay and play basketball with them... but then I left to play football with the church and many...errr...strangers? And it sucks. I made a mistake. A wrong decision. I feel stupid...

Sometimes, you think you will feel best when you are with the best thing you have...
And sometimes, you think the best thing you have is the best thing you ever had...
And sometimes again, the best thing you have may leads you to the worst situation...

Forfeit the game...you can't run the race...the pace is too fast...and you just won't last...

2004-08-14T23:08:00.000+08:00

Friday
Tired...tired...totally exhausted...
I was browsing my PC to kill some time. And I found a zipped file.
C:\My Folders\Vincent's Library\Secrets\pain and sorrow.zip
Well, "pain and sorrow" contains 131 rich text documents and 2 pictures. I was, I am reluctant to remove this folder. It...was a apart of my life...and now, it is apart of my memory... memory of pain and sorrow...

"yea..n i hope tat feeling won't fade away...i...look....u jus came in nowhere n has been a great...like half of my life...can't stop thinking bout u... or jus can't wait till i really c u...or jus expecting something great will happen...something amazing..."

Neither something great nor amazing happened...and you have gone like a wind...

2004-08-10T20:46:00.000+08:00

He sucks... I totally disgusted with him. Not only me, but everyone feel the same too. The girls from my class dislike him as he is the lord of perverts. Even the patient Yuen couldn't bear his arrogance and had a dispute (almost a fight) with that haughty bastard yesterday.
I never bother to talk to this good-for-nothing since the incident. Well, I was standing somewhere and this fucking big ass came to me. He wanted to cross the place where I stood, so he used his hands to push me aside without any notice. I pushed him with anger and said, "What do you want, idiot?" He went off then...silently and cowardly like a chicken back to its mummy hen.
He loves to use plump parts of his body to ram people and bully the weaks, he loves to use his stinking mouth to laugh at people and criticize them, he loves to use his damn-itchy hand to humiliate people and show some stupid poses. He thinks of nothing except himself... how silly...
What kind of ~~human~~ dog is this? I'm still looking for a word to describe how "sohai" is you... fat ass.YY...

2004-07-30T01:09:00.000+08:00

I didn't go to school today. After completed the mission given by Sis... then I wrote something about war...sounds like essay... Oh yeah, can pass up to my tuition teacher as homework...

Most people seem to agree that wartimes are the worst of times. Wars in the twentieth century were the most horrible of all. Even the winners of the wars suffered heavy losses. Hence, people hate war.
The Second World War was the most horrible history of all. It was different to past wars because you weren’t safe anywhere. Bombs could blast anyone at anytime. The Second World War was started by a wicked man, Adolf Hitler who led the Nazi party won the German elections in 1933. Few years later, Adolf Hitler’s German invaded Poland and the Allies of Britain and France declared war on Germany. The Second World War had started but the war was turning against the Allies and consequently Italy and Japan joined Germany in war against the Allies. The Soviet Union joined the war later on the side of the Allies.
Dozens of cities were bombarded and the civilians were in the front line of war. The war was horrible because so many millions of innocent civilians were killed, bombed in their home towns, miles behind the front line of war. People suffered even worse hardships owing to starvations and torments by the invaders. When the Japanese invaded the Asia, numerous civilians were tortured to death; even more women were literally raped and disgraced. In Germany, the prisoners of war were forced to work without enough food until they dropped down dead. The Soviet Union fought brutally and lost an unbelievable numbers of its people. The people died continuously due to invasions, starvations and homelessness. Thousands of spies died after they had been betrayed by their own people. These spies were caught and tortured cruelly by their enemies to reveal their secrets.
New weapons were created in Second World War to win the war as quick as possible. In 1945, the United States dropped the most destructive bombs yet invented on the towns of Hiroshima and Nagasaki in Japan. The Atomic bombs killed 120,000 innocent lives and flattened the two towns in seconds. The Second World War ended 5 years and 40 millions corpses after it started.
War brings out the worse side of many human beings. People would rather rob, kill and betray each other for their own sake than anything during wartimes. The real horror of a war is that so many people are prepared and trained to kill so many others in cold blood. The killers often show mercy to no one, not even an insensible baby, a screaming child, a weeping woman or a feeble old man. That’s what war can do to us.

2004-07-27T14:59:00.000+08:00

I got a video clip from somone. I have watched the "first episode"...This one is the "second episode". The star for the "first episode" is an American; "second episode" is a Korean. Yes, that's it! They were the hostages captured by those boasty terrorists aka cowardly bastards. I watched the clip yesterday...when I was having my dinner... nothing special actually... just when they slaughtered the Korean's head...the blood was flowing out like the tomato sauce on your dining plate. Then they pulled out the Korean's head...all the blood vessels from the neck....like yummy beef spaghetti with tomato sauce... I tried to send to everyone but majority of them refused to accept my kind offer...sighhhh...

If interested, please download it from my storage room!

www.geocities.com/vmp3a/korean.zip

2004-07-23T23:25:00.000+08:00

Sometimes, I'm too aggressive... I think. What's now? I do not have anything to say... Things are still running on the same old path... Some even getting worse than before... There is nothing good to share about... That's life... a life of reality... How wide we dream not to awake from sweet dreams... without knowing that nightmares are on the way to haunt their preys again...

2004-07-22T18:33:00.000+08:00

Ahhhh...I'didnt go to school today. How nice... staying at home, doing my blog template...

2004-07-18T17:04:00.000+08:00

Sunday
Everything is done... class webby done... PC reformatted... ermm...what else? Yeah, time to study hard... gonna push myself to the maximum speed now...

Yea, breaking news for FFF (Final Fantasy Fans)!

"Final Fantasy VII - Advent Children" gonna come out as CG movie soon! Wooowww... Final Fantasy VII is my ever favorite game...and it is going to be my favorite movie soon! Cloud, Sephiroth, Tifa, Aerith, Cid, Red XII and especially VINCENT VALENTINE are back for action! It is time to explain what happened to Vincent Valentine and his lover who has turned into an experimental creature, Jenova and defeated by Cloud. Touching love stories, eternal friendships, cool Sephiroth, "heart-toucher" Aerith, beautiful Tifa and chicken-haired Cloud... I can't wait for this movie... helppppp...

Sephiroth!

For more information bout Final Fantasy VII - Advent Children, please log on http://www.adventchildren.net/

Final Fantasy Forever!

Saturday
I feel good... da-na-da-na-da-na-da...Like sugar and spice... da-na-da-na-da-na-da... Ouch... stupid tummy ache destroyed everything...

2004-07-11T15:19:00.000+08:00

Racism...
200 years ago, in the dominion of President Abraham Lincoln, a civil war happened in America. People died in their own land for their different determinations. The North wanted to free the black people; The South wanted the black people to die as slaves. An unwanted war happened and the God was with Abraham Lincoln... The black people freed from slavery, the statue of Liberty was built... and United States of America was created...
200 years later, racism still lurking everywhere and haunting everyone. Christian is not an exception... it does happens in church. Frankly, my dad has a dislike of Indians and there are about 50 percent Indians in my church... Therefore he doesn't like my church... All the years round, I dislike this bad attitude of him. But who knows many people in my church were the same... "you stabbed my back, I stab you back"...and I just realized that I was being a fool to believe what I believed... The unity and equality between races is a dream beyond the impossible matter...

2004-07-05T21:44:00.000+08:00

I'm back! Vincent Online... Blogging control online.
Saturday 26th June 2004
Someone in my church was leaving to England. The youth had a farewell party for him; I didn't show up that day.
Why?
I don't want to see something I don't want to see
I don't want to hear something I don't want to hear
I don't want to feel something I don't want to feel
I'm running from something...

Sunday 4th July 2004
My best friend came and fixed my "wife", NMA87.
He is really something... I was so glad that he lent me his hands...
I can online! I can online!
Back to work! My class webby...

2004-06-20T22:20:00.000+08:00

People like a person who has a lot of money...
People reject a person who has nothing...
People honor a person who is noble...
People humiliate a person who is low status...
Yes, that's truth...
Who says money can't buy love? Who says we can survive without money? Who says money isn't everything?
Who will you choose between a wealthy "office-sitter" and a "farmboy"?
What if both of them love you the same...
Obviously you will choose the wealthy one and get rid of the so called "farmboy"...
Love is money, money is love... except the one from the Above...
A person who is kind enough but do not have any money IS WASTAGE...
A person who is wealthy but do not have good manner IS WICKED...
A person who is virtuously and rich IS THE PURPOSE OF MANY LIFE BEINGS...
And that's my destination to own everything... everything I want...

2004-06-20T22:19:00.000+08:00

Saturday
I played badminton in the morning. As usual, I played with those same people. Badminton is the best sport I can play... I guess.
Someone said that my basketball skill is bad... Yea I admit that... but do you have to say it out loudly? Fool...
Oh, it's Saturday... Youth meeting... Well, too tired to go... I went, however... As usual again, I am still playing the role of a silencer...
Something attracted me... and I could just put a fake smile on my face...

2004-06-19T01:42:00.000+08:00

Sometimes... I feel like holding you... and say that how much I miss you...
I do not have the courage to do it, however...
Sometimes... I wish to be your hero... and kiss away the pain from you...
I could only stand aside to watch over you, however...
I just hope that you would spend a short time on me...

2004-06-12T01:07:00.000+08:00

Alright, we are human... we are emotional...
Hate...
"People hate people that are smarter than them or better than them"
Did you miss a word; a "some" in the front?
I'm totally in disagreement with your statement...not every people are like that...
Prejudice...
"Why do you hate him?" I asked him...
"Oh... I also don't know why?" He replied
Oh man, what the hell wrong with you? Did he kick your father's ass? Did he rape your mother?
There is always a reason to hate someone... and moreover we are friends...why do we kill each other like barbarian...
Judge...
Isn't it too much or too quickly to estimate about something?
Well, an old quote... "Do not judge a book by its cover..."
Maybe this one sounds better... "Do not judge a human by his/her appearance and his/her personality..."
No point doing that... you'll just hurt them. No point hurting people... you're just hurting yourself...
The world is lack of love... generosity and forgiveness...
Love is patient and kind; it is not jealous or conceited or proud; love is not ill-mannered or selfish or irritable; love does not keep a record of wrongs; love is not happy with evil; but is happy with the truth. Love never gives up; and its faith, hope and patience never fail. Love is eternal. There are inspired messages, but they are temporary; there are gifts of speaking in strange tongues, but they'll cease; there is knowledge, but it will pass. - 1 Corinthians 13:4-8
So turn away your negative feelings
And you'll realize that love has found you

2004-06-11T22:33:00.000+08:00

Oh my my... is it Friday? Oh my my again... The holiday is going to end in 3 days time.
Holy crap... I'm gonna wake up before the sun rise up again...and have to carry those brick-like thick books...
Negative emotion... ahhhhh....controlling my mind...ahhhhh...

2004-06-07T17:37:00.000+08:00

Home alone... how good, how nice, how wonderful, how free... how BORED...
Saturday... the youth church got visitors from other church... so many people... so what?
Sunday... Judson came back from Australia... ah... no more pony tail... much better...
Now... I am praying to God that He would drop me a pretty angel...to accompany me... how good is my imagination...

2004-06-06T00:39:00.000+08:00

Friday
I was having the connection problem these few days. Found out the modem was behind all these problems.
Thank God, Andrew gave his modem to me... Ah... he has ADSL modem now... 56k modem is rubbish for him.
This is the first time... I open up the cover and attach device by myself... I'm so proud of myself... Crappy...
I watched "The Day After Tomorrow"...
I still don't get the title... I like the ending...very much...
The US president was sharing something...something like below...
"I'm giving this speech in a foreign country once we called Third World Country...Everyone was wrong...I was wrong...blah blah blah... Today, I wish to thank those (Third World Countries) for their hospitality and their help... toward this disaster...tragic.... Blah blah blah..."
I'm waiting this to happen... I know it will happen...

2004-05-30T16:43:00.000+08:00

Saturday
Hot hot hot... You know what is it?
I wanna blow now!!!
You ask me to go to church, just to fill up a survey form?
Moreover fill it one more time?
Now you do not accept it and ask me to fill it one more time again?
I really don't know what do you want from me...
Oh, another you also, who do you think you are?
You did not ask properly, you were ordering me!
Hello, I have been this church longer than you...
Can't you talk to me with polite words?
No? Oh... I wanna tell you something... BITCH!!!
I'm tired of your sickening manner...

2004-05-28T11:08:00.000+08:00

Diagnostic Test is over now...
We went to play football in the Indoor Football Center after school. Oh man... it was 90 bucks for 2 hours.
So funny, the receptionist was a blonde... original white people... a female blonde...
Neither all of them wanted to ask her about the booking... They chose me... Damn you all...

Most of us can't play football... we just played...
The result was we got more injuries than goals...
Cramping, bleeding, paining... tiring...
After we finished our torments, I planned to walk back; they all went to the way we came from...

Oh God, are you playing me...
Rain poured out... on my way to home...
It was far beyond my expectation...
I thought I can reach home easily...
2 miles road with chilly rain...
I could see hell...

2004-05-22T23:21:00.000+08:00

I was not in a good mood... but I was forced to act that I'm not...
Yep, Pasarakyat sales again...
Everything seems different with my mom's existence...
Sucks is the only word to describe the circumstance...
I'll not go to that place AGAIN as long as my mom is going...

Damn it damn it Damn it
I only have few bucks in my wallet...
Forgot to reload extra money...
Damn it damn it Damn it

Ahhhhhhhhhhhhh.....Shutttt...up!!! I'm about to break!!!

I'll paint it on the walls
Cause I'm the one at fault
I'll never fight again
And this is how it ends

2004-05-21T19:50:00.000+08:00

Some time ago, we were young and wild and free
We talked, we played, we laughed... together...

Some time later, I changed, you changed... everything changed
Don't know why... embitterment in my heart...to hear that from you...
Thank you for... the ~~two years~~ three years friendship...
Thank you for... giving me some hope... and trust...
Thank you for... letting me pray for you...
I'll remember it... farewell, my dear ~~special~~ friend.

2004-05-15T22:44:00.000+08:00

Youth was doing something great today; we went to Pasarakyat and sell cheese tarts, popcorn, soya bean... First time to the Pasarakyat, it looks weird, some more "weirder" with the smoking Malay manager loitering around the place. He's shitty, I can tell you... he loves to mind your business, then he scolds you, then he treats you makan... Ah, forget bout him... Pasarakyat is big, but do not have any air conditional system, only water cooling fans.

Anyway, our sales were around RM500... quite pleasing result. Everyone did a good job... especially those who acted like an orphan, people pity them then buy stuffs from them, "I buy for you, faster go home ah!" But I think I can't do it with my spiky hair, no one will believe in me. Some people are very good to you, they asked a lot of questions when you do this charity sale... Ah... I hate to speak... Some people don't even bother you; keep their eyes on the front... Hey dude, there is a piece of shit on the ground...

In conclusion, it was a good day... very nice though I'm a bit bored... but I think it's worth it... I will try harder... to archive everything that I want... I will...

2004-05-13T21:15:00.000+08:00

Wednesday
I attended Uncle Alan’s father’s funeral… This is my first time to attend funeral service… Like a wild elephant enters the city. Sooria was talking about what to do with her funeral… not funny also… but irritating… Well, it is hard… to overcome the loss of your lover… I can feel it…

Death had covered the path of mortal,
Life had just lightened the path of eternity.

My condolences, Uncle Alan…

2004-05-10T21:14:00.000+08:00

Fear was conquering my dream this morning… I woke up at 8.30am… Lack of confidence to pass the driving exam… Lack of courage to face any changes in the driving test… but everything was gone when I started to overcome my fear… and told myself that I need to pass… I can’t fail…
And I did it… I was so excited… Thanks to my Dad, Uncle Mike, and prayers from Pastor and of coz, the His Grace.

Yang failed the test… It was so unfair to him… he should have passed… I feel so sorry to him… I think the small mistake made by him should be given one more chance…

They don't always happen when you ask
And it's easy to give in to your fear
But when you're blinded by your pain
Can't see your way clear through the rain
A small but still resilient voice
Says love is very near

2004-05-09T22:47:00.001+08:00

I’m out of my mind, I’m speechless, I’m stuck, I’m nervous, I’m a bit excited… I need your supportive words!
Tomorrow is the driving test… I hope I could pass it…

2004-05-09T22:47:00.000+08:00

Saturday
It is youth meeting… A bit different this time… The Youth Church has to change. They gave me a couple of questions; I didn’t answer them seriously…
Of cause, I will never let the Youth Church be closed. Never! Our YC is lack of members, so what? Like my friend, Chris said “My church is about 2000 members, hundreds of youth, but we do not have close relationship.” I can see everyone in the church know each other very well, except for few people. What can I do for the youth church? I really do not know… and I wish to have someone tell me too…

2004-05-03T21:20:00.000+08:00

It’s Monday! It’s holiday! It’s a damn boring day…
Sunday was good, everything was still the same… except for the presence of church members. You weren’t there… hope ya enjoy your trip!
Well, Judson is going to Perth this Thursday. For one month… Wow…I also wanna go!

Mom and Auntie Cecilia were doing the charity thing the whole weekend. They were hoping more people to help to raise the fund of new church building. I wish I could help too…

*Current song* I’ve Been Waiting for You by Guys Next Door

2004-05-01T10:50:00.000+08:00

Life… Who knows about it? Ah…it’s been a while I stopped blogging. Life is so busy now. Class website, driving lessons… conquered most of my time. Life is wonderful? Nah… what about I give you my finger, you spell me w-o-n-d-e-r-f-u-l?

Since the new neighbor moved in, many things happened in my house area. Everyone was complaining of losing their belongings. Ah… she is a thief…though she is a cripple. Her voice is like the howl of coyote… loud and clear…better than TIME net. Shouting at her son… Everyone dislikes her… for she was trying to take advantage from other people. Although how bad she is, I think it was not all her fault. Her husband, useless fucking old butt, beat her everyday. She begged for mercy…but fucking old butt was merciless… continue beating his taken out “rib”…

Why would a man beat a woman? He is bullying the weak… and yet, that’s his wife. Fucking old butt, if you’re someone I know, I’ll let you taste what is pain and sorrow. Stop it, bastard! God created woman for you to love, of coz, not for you as a punching bag. Maybe this is the fact, only the strong will survive in this world…the weak shall perish. The world is lack of love…

Welcome to the World,
where money and authority rule.
Welcome to the Reality,
where dreams and illusions dispelled.

2004-04-18T22:34:00.000+08:00

Sunday
It was drizzling in the noon, it was beautiful and it was showing no mercy… it wouldn’t stop. It reminds me that destiny wouldn’t change and it was destined… Behind me was the church, I stood there for about 20 minutes…

“Who do you love?” her question flows to my mind again…
Who do I love?
It is not my family… not even my relatives. It is not those who I meet everyday, I talk to everyday… But I do have few special one that I love… They are those who I meet few times in a month…maybe few words in a week… If that is unacceptable…then my final answer is… I do not love anyone…

2004-04-17T23:38:00.000+08:00

Very funny… couldn’t open IE because of an error… I tried everything but still failed. Alright, I chose to trust Microsoft and sent a report to them. It worked! Downloaded an uninstaller and removed Winshow.

I was having a nice chat with her… She told me many things. I told her something…At last came out everything. Very funny again… I revealed something very secrecy in my life. I shouldn’t have done that. I do not trust anyone… and maybe because of this reason, I do not love anyone… But I have some special feeling on few people in my life.

An angel that has fallen will never rise again…
I do not have the chance again, and why am I telling her all these? I didn’t even know what the hell I was doing. What did she mean by “not this time”? I want to tell her that I’m sorry. I’m no more a Guardian…I’m a Destroyer…